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'm your classic XX chromosome fuck up. I'm a 20 year old Jersey girl with a mouth as big as my heart. And trust me, it's quite large.I'm attracted to the fast, loud lifestyle but at the same time, there's nothing I love more than slowing down and taking it all in. what "it" is exactly depends on my current situation. I'm a collector of art that I proudly display on my skin. I'm infamous for putting others before myself and as far as I'm concerned a friend of mine is family. I listen to music that your parents probably rocked out to in high school.It's horribly cliche' but I am your typical Aries lady. I'm impatient, hot headed and I love my men, but when it really matters, I'm your go to gal and I'm loyal until the end .

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[February 25, 2009 @ 11:30pm]
Tap tap. This thing on?


[November 04, 2008 @ 8:10am]
you know, its good that for once the country is showing some unity and most of it is doing you know, what it's SUPPOSED to and going out and voting if they are so able. But I'm really really really REALLY sick of people cramming it down my throat already. I voted in the last election, in the primaries for this election and everything in between. I really can't say that for most of my peers. and whats funny is most of my peers and the ones cramming it down said throats.

Maybe, just maybe, if more of you assholes went to the polls last time, we wouldn't be in this spot this time?
We have record numbers out there. we should have numbers like this for each and every election.

This country is sad. this country really disgusts me.
nothing like waiting until the last minute to realize we have shit to fix.
And what really gets me is maybe a 3rd of the people going in there are uneducated in their choices.

No one is gonna save us now.

[September 09, 2008 @ 11:12pm]
I suppose it's that time of year where i sit at my laptop and try and gather myself about this upcoming thursday. I never really have anything new to say and most by now should know the impact the day had on me and if you don't one day i'm sure you'll have the story told. And i guess being from NJ everyone in the area can sit here and say they were affected in some weird way being we're so close to it.

Maybe it was too much for a sophmore in high school to handle and maybe thats why that day totally freaks me right the fuck out. Maybe that can explain my extreme dislike of politics and the people who exploit what happened and who it happened to for personal gain.

If i'm really going to sit here and say anything at all, it's that people should really appreciate the common man. Local politics aside, support your volunteers. Support your veterans, the old and the new. Take pride in something. Believe in small miracles of the human spirit. Tell someone you care about that you do care. No one is asking you to fly the fucking flag and be super patriot number one but at least take your hat off at a game during the national anthem. Do some charity work, it's good for the soul (and i speak from experience). Write your local paper, start a blog, get a soapbox, use your freedoms even if no one listens and use them while you still can. Send a soldier a care package or a letter (i have family over there, they love it). Do something and spread the good karma. Trust that even though corruption is prevalent everywhere, there are good people who do give a flying shit and do care. I know because i am one of those people. Smile at at least one stranger every day. And remember the people who had no idea what was going to happen when they left the house that morning by keeping politics and conspiracy out of it.

[May 23, 2008 @ 8:16pm]
well, it's official. I am going back to school come January.
The only real snag is I have to pay my own way since my parents wont be able to pay for 2 kids in school at the same time. It also means i have to quit my sweet job that makes me the sugar momma i am and bring me back to the joys of part time job living.

So now to research loans, grants and scholarships. For someone who's NOT graduating from high school.
Anyone who may be able to help me out, let me know.

oh. I'll be attending the Art Institute of Philadelphia. probably will be living on campus until meg moves out there or if i can find housing for cheap.

who's excited? I'm excited. my bank account however is very upset with me at the moment.
buuuuuuuuuut my summer looks like it's going to be epic (especially next month, holy shit!) so it'll be a nice end before i work my ass off in a totally different way. It's kinda funny. all my friends finally got out of school and now i'm heading back in.

such is life.

[May 19, 2008 @ 7:21pm]
i'm a fucking moron, i dont know why i keep damien rice on my playlist.
I swear half of that bullshit is about me and my fucking life.

I need to listen to rootless tree and just get on with it.
I'm gonna go have a smoke.
fuck me.

[May 15, 2008 @ 10:21am]
i'm not quite sure why i keep this thing anymore since i always just post shit in my sg.

everything's pretty much the same. still working. still bored out of my skull all day everyday.
upped the drinking a bit, but thats not a surprise to anyone.

this apathy will be the death of me.
mmmmm i feel a song coming on.

hopefully i'll pull through and be out of here soon. since i'm in a vague sort of mood, i'll keep it at that and update you as i get more. if i feel like it. if not, like everything i do, you'll hear it through the grapevine.

because i'm not really a subtle motherfucker.

[March 11, 2008 @ 11:56pm]
I'm not a robot but i've got a mechanical hand. I can steal the stars and put them back again
if i am a machine because of my hand-made heart, why do i dream im a dinosaur tearing sheep apart?

[March 08, 2008 @ 4:42pm]
watched Blue Velvet today. Dennis Hopper is up there on my list of actors who i dont think actually have to act, they just show up

what a blah boring weekend

[March 07, 2008 @ 8:29am]
fuck i feel SO much better now that shit straightened itself out.
i feel recharged and i'm ready to go! which could have dangerous consequences, but i can sort those out later. ;)

[March 03, 2008 @ 11:52pm]
sometimes i wonder how life would've been if i followed through and finished school. or if me and meg went to school together. or if i never met the second biggest disappointment in my life. would i have most of my tattoos or my brand, would i be more of an assertive asshole, would people like me, would i like me?

for fucks sake i wonder why people find me so fascinating. sure i'm loud and outgoing and say more of what people only think. i'm always doing something. i have to do something. you cant live a life sitting still, can you?
i'm misunderstood, i'm creepy, i'm awkward. i have a weird face, i have dangerous curves. And most frighteningly of all, i have a fucking mind. guys dont want a girl with a brain, they want something nice to look at that's agreeable, not someone who challenges them. love songs these days are so uninspiring because of that. because by lowering our standards, we set the bar too high. and i can't keep up.

thats why growing up is such a sham. but it's only going to get harder.
i wonder what would happen if i continued this train of thought
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[March 02, 2008 @ 11:24pm]
and thus a 5 month dry streak has come to an end.
More at who the fuck even reads this journal anymore o'clock

[February 17, 2008 @ 11:23am]
 so for a while, i've wanted to pick up the violin. it's an instrument that like the trombone(and this is the only way one can compare the two really) it can sound like many things, and has an amazing range to express whatever it may  be that you're playing about.  you can play as softly as the footsteps of a child and shrieking like an angry harpie, all tastefully. oh, that and they don't have defined positions to make sound. that's all up the player's skill and knowledge to create the right sound. and i love a challange.

so i was talking to a good friend of mine last night and told him i think this year for my birthday, since i dont think i'll be doing anything, i'm going to by myself an electric violin. a good quality one. So the conversation goes as thus.

"Good! you should go for it, i know you've been flirting with the idea of getting a violin for a long time"
"Well that's how i work. I flirt for a while, fall in love and play it well until it destroys me. That's the best way TO go. I need something new to master"

ah, my love of music is an allegory for the rest of my life. way to go spontaneous brain

[January 31, 2008 @ 11:53pm]
 When i'm good, i'm REALLY good.

i think i should be a writer, because i certainly think like one. because this is twice now that i've had a theory that is pretty close to accurate.

Ask me about my Lost theory ;)

What ugly bullshit [January 23, 2008 @ 7:58pm]

I am tolerant of religions that are tolerant of others. 
this is just disgusting.

[December 23, 2007 @ 6:58pm]
Knock knock?
who's there?
You're still an asshole.

to everyone else, have a safe and happy holiday.

[December 10, 2007 @ 9:05pm]
i'm not really sure what side is up anymore.
i've been doing the day by day gig for a while now.

it kinda feels like i'm waiting for someone to fire the starting pistol, but i have no idea when, or where the hell i'm going after the fact.

i just wanna hug everyone. hugs make everything better. even briefly.
I'm not sure when hurt became such a common practice in all our lives..but i hope like all bad times, this too shall pass.

just remember, someone, somewhere out there loves you. the trick is convincing yourself, that you should be that person when they have a day off.

[October 15, 2007 @ 10:55pm]
i have a bit of a gerard butler problem..

i've got time to kill soooooo [October 03, 2007 @ 10:24pm]
Reply to this post, and I will list three things I love about you. Maybe more than three. Then repost to your own journal and spread the love.

and if not, well then i guess you can just assume i hate you. ;)
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[July 07, 2007 @ 11:33am]
Gone to Ireland.
back in 10 days

Teh End

[May 17, 2007 @ 11:27pm]
amy needs a new room mate

any takers?
I'm looking to move by september, so for the love of pete (you know who i'm talking about), have your shit/act together please.

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